Scout Camp

There is silence coming from Tyler's room today. I woke him up at 1:30 am to tell him how much I loved him before I left for work this morning. I was sure that I would not make it home in time to tell him "goodbye". As I was reminding him of all the important things, he reached out and told me he would miss me and gave me the best hug ever. I left for work feeling like I was someone important.

I was amazed to find that my papers were ready and waiting when I arrived to the warehouse. I checked the time and somehow there was a real possibility that I could make it to the church in time to say one last "goodbye". I know.....one should be enough. But, this is the first time that Tyler has gone away for home for an extended period of time. He is headed to his first experience at Boy Scout camp. This may not be a big deal to some but for me it is everything.

Tyler is my boy. When I found out I was pregnant with him I about lost it. I didn't know how to take care of a boy. I didn't know if I could take care of a boy. Well, it took only one look at him after he was born for me to know that all of my worries were silly. He instantly won a spot within my heart.

So, today, I am feeling a little out of sorts. I miss my Tyler. I am not sure if I like this growing up stuff or not. I hope that he remembers to brush his teeth and use soap while taking a shower. I did remind him many times that swimming in the lake does not count as a proper shower. The list of things I tried to tell him could go on forever. I feel much like a momma bird when her baby takes flight and soars from the nest.

My wish for Tyler is nothing but the best. I hope and pray that he loves every moment of his experience. For me, I simply pray that I will make it through the week without too many tears!